The Spaces Between Your Fingers

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One time I had to take a pain medication that reacted negatively to my body; as a result, I thought I died. This profound moment helped shaped my views on life and death. This is the story of that time, taking place in my backyard, house, and front yard.

Context: One time I had to take a pain medication that reacted negatively to my body; as a result, I thought I died. This is the story of that time, taking place in my backyard, house, and front yard.

The suns bright.

Too bright to keep eyes open, as a matter of fact. Physically incapable of moving, every attempt at standing was met with a rush of blood to my head and a dark fade of my vision. It's hard to tell how long I've been here in this chair, but the finally warm weather of mid-april means that it doesn't matter to me.

I'm not alone, but I pay no mind to the person next to me.

The sun's rays seemed to reach down and restrain me to my lawn throne. My mind is not constrained by my physical limitations as my thoughts soar to the sky.

"What is there for me? Is any of this even real?"

These thoughts are bouncing around in this elevated mind state, with such a buoyancy that my whole body seemed to shake. Vision clears the way of these thoughts as the realization that I'm inside rears its ugly head. A useless romantic comedy is on the televsion; perhaps the only programming I could contribute to in such a state.

I wonder again how long it has been. My senses continue to betray me, yet the clock reads 4:15. The numbers don't register until 4:18, the approximate time I lumber upstairs and back out to the front yard.

Anyone watching would see the human body equivalent of a train wreck.

"Why am I outside?"

I was summoned to the car; upon realizing this I promptly begin the benign trance over.

Waiting in the passenger seat begins to take its toll on me as there is nothing keeping me from slipping into unconsciousness.

"This is really it.", I thought.

I close my eyes and accept my fate. I always knew I'd go peacefully, and after a short while I reach a gleaming light.

And the mind slammed shut.

Shutdown

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One time I had to take a pain medication that reacted negatively to my body; as a result, I thought I died. This profound moment helped shaped my views on life and death. This is the story of that time, taking place in my backyard, house, and front yard.

Tags: Near death
Decade: 2010s
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Recorded by James Fulmer on May 29, 2014
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